May 1st, 2012 § § permalink
2012 is underway. I find myself floundering. By this time last year, I have been extremely bitten and consumed by the embroidery bug. It was all I did in 2011. Health issues have stalled/stopped my creative engine. Snow White and Hansel & Gretel have been stalled indefinitely on my embroidery shelf. I still have the giveaway in progress as well. Taking care of my two year old has also consumed much of my time. She is much more mobile now. With my projects stalled, I began to pursue cooking/baking and it became my outlet for much of this year.
At the moment, I find myself needing to focus and narrow down what I want to do. Doing embroidery full time is no longer doable. I just don’t have the time and the dexterity. My hands are starting to get tired. I want to limit myself to three works a year tops. I’m not abandoning it but I am going to be more choosy about what I’ll be working on.
I want to finish writing my novel. I’m stalled at 45000 words. I’m halfway done. I need to finish. I’ve set a personal deadline of August.
I want to pursue art again and this time in digital form. I want to create digital art. I have a tablet but I never felt comfortable with it. My husband recently got an Ipad and I really enjoyed making art with it. I like seeing where my fingers go. It’s the closest to traditional art I’ve ever experienced. Using the tablet forced me to divide my attention between the blank slate and the screen. With the Ipad, I just need to look in one place. I want to produce enough art again to restart my etsy shop.
I want to sew doll clothes again just for myself. I have a stack of books I want to explore and there are designs/patterns in my sketchbook unfulfilled.
On a personal note, I also have my road test coming up soon. I need to pass that first. This is the week after Anime North for which I need to finish 21 octopi, a cosplay entry, and a cosplay. Yes, I’ve been really busy. I hope to surface for air when I pass my road test.
I hope you all are well! Have you also somehow lost focus in your creative pursuits? I’d love to read about it.
September 27th, 2011 § § permalink
Dorothy WIP #2
All the gang are here! The applique process is done and it’s time for my favourite part- beading and embroidery detailing! I’ve been doing really well progress wise with this piece. The Cowardly Lion, Tin Man, and Scarecrow are in dancing poses. It’s a play on the words “Ding Dong!” which I will be embroidering/beading somewhere on the piece.
I’m also still writing on the side. I write all day in snippets and I’ve started a plot chart. I’m onto plotting chapter 7. I hope I can post some sample characters or even excerpts in this blog when I finish. I can’t believe the amount of work I’m getting done despite wrestling with migraines on a daily basis and running after a 1.5 year old.
I hope your day is as productive as mine!
September 24th, 2011 § § permalink
I got my pieces back from my framer Agnes at Delhi Photo & Frame. They look stunning! I’m really pleased. Each piece cost about $40 to frame. In the future, I will only frame the larger pieces. I’ll be selling the smaller ones. I’m off to the County Fair office this afternoon to fill in my entry forms. I’m just really pleased at how they turned out.
On the writing front, I think I’m really onto something. I’ve changed my concept completely. Ideas are pouring in. Characters are being fleshed out. I am setting the deadline for world building/character sketches for Oct 30. I want everything to be done so I can start writing my novel for Nanowrimo.
September 21st, 2011 § § permalink
Perfectionism can be both an asset and a liability. First, the good! Perfectionism incurs a high standard of work to achieve for and encourages one to get better technically and to create better work. I find myself getting better when I push and push for that greater result. I’m constantly trying to see what I can do with beads and embroider and how I can push the medium further.
Now, the bad! Perfectionism can get you stalled starting a project. There will be this irrational need to have all the supplies on hand to do a project and to have an ideal environment and state of mind before starting. I find this crops up especially when I try to write. I get caught up in world building and having the proper character sketches before I even want to commit a word on a page. I know many writers have spent years just world building and not producing a single page. It’s dangerous. Fortunately, I don’t have this mentality when I embroider or draw. For me, this problem is exclusive to writing. When I draw and embroider, I’m like a locomotive building up steam. It just gets done unless I lose motivation. That is another issue all together.
The second big bad- Perfectionism can get you stuck in a never-ending project. The project will never get done because it needs this one last thing or it just constantly doesn’t look right. There were times in the past I looked at a piece and I just can’t finish it. This is rare for me though because I don’t have open/unfinished projects lying around the house anymore. The only unfinished/stalled thing in the house is my novel. I have many issues with my writing that I have to deal with. I feel I don’t have the writing ability/style/skills to commit my ideas on paper. This same feeling prevents me from starting in the first place. In contrast, my artistic pursuits just magically get done unless I run out of steam.
Creativity is a marvelous beast with Perfectionism as the harness. You’re in control.
August 29th, 2011 § § permalink
Chanel - Romantic Alice Pullip
So I was totally gungho in doing this Pullip niche project! I bought the box and have a total list of supplies I bought with a manageable budget. Then I did more research. I realized I was totally in way over my head. I’m a perfectionist and when I start a project, I want the end result to meet my standards. This project will not turn out the way I want it to because there are very little or no playscale items that meet the aesthetic standard I am looking for and because of the previous point, I will have to build everything I want and I don’t have the time, space, and funds to do so at this point.
I will use the box I bought and turn it into a fat quarter stash box. I will be taking pics and doing a quicky tutorial for that. I feel a little disheartened because building a diorama/getting into miniatures is something on my wishlist but I just can’t do right now. I’m caught up in getting back into doll sewing, have the embroidery underway, and want to start writing again. I often feel like I wish I could cell-divide to be able to do all these things. Precious time is also scarce which makes everything even more daunting. The project setback is more of a blow to my creative ego. I hope to be able to do this all one day. In the meantime, I really shouldn’t pile more on my full plate as is. There are days when I wished I lived forever so I can just do everything I want to do. This is one of those days.
April 11th, 2011 § § permalink
Beautiful Deer from the Brantford Twin Valley Zoo
I am still struggling to maintain balance. For now, my baby’s managed to sleep through the night two nights in a row. She was almost back to her regular schedule last night. Insert sigh of relief here. Hopefully tomorrow I can post a WIP of my current hoop. I’m going to transition to Nicole’s hoop afterwards. I just need a bit of a break. I am also unsure whether I can sew something doll-sized by late May. The husband and I are heading to Toronto for a weekend – baby free! Whoot Whoot!
As for the writing, I have stories brewing in my head again. I need to have something brewing for me to write. If my mind is blank, I just don’t write anything. It’s like a tea kettle. It needs to boil for a while before all the words come out. I am unsure what I’ll be writing though. I want to return to Nelve but a sequel to The Scent Enchantress is surfacing. I do know the writing will be second on the list to sewing. This is because I need to have a mind full of stories, dialogue, etc. before I even begin to sit down and write.
There is just not enough time in a day…
April 6th, 2011 § § permalink
A cover I cooked up for The Scent Enchantress
For those of you who are curious about my novel, this post is for you! The Scent Enchantress is a contemporary fantasy romance. It is set in a fictional suburb of Toronto.
Bullied and tormented, librarian Esper Vaughn retreats into her
perfect world of steamy romance novels. The arrival of a magical
inheritance forces her to take control of her destiny. She is a
Scent Enchantresses and heir to a line long of magical women gifted
with incredibly enhanced sense of smell.
As Esper begins her initiation into the magic arts, a former
highschool crush and a familiar Prince Charming re-enter her life.
With her growing magical powers, she begins to see visions of her
death and the perils of magic. Can she survive her first year as a
Scent Enchantress and defy the rule that love is forbidden?
I finished this novel a few months before I had Natalie. It’s been shelved since. Robert remembered its existence and tells me we should do something with it. I’ve submitted it to a few places and I’m hoping to hear back before the end of May. I’ve never really exhausted any avenues with this manuscript. I figured why not? We’re planning on self-publishing anyway if nothing pans out with the submissions.
When I was in highschool, I wrote every day. I must have finished about two or three novels. They were all romance novels. My friends were wonderful and eagerly awaited the 2-3 pages I brought every morning. I hope some of them are reading this blog. It’ll bring back memories and they will see that after 10 years, I’m still writing.
April 5th, 2011 § § permalink
A Beautiful Afghan by my Sister-In-Law
For the months of April and May, I need to get two main things done aside from editing my novel. I am making a hoop for a friend of mine- Nicole. The other is sewing doll clothes for Anime North in May. I haven’t touched my dolls since I packed them up at the last trimester of my pregnancy. My baby is now a year old. I hope to post sketches. Dolls are a wonderful hobby I have that I photograph and sew for. I hope to be posting sewing doll clothes in the future.
As for the writing, I have submitted my manuscript to a few places and I hope I’ll hear something back before the end of May. May is my cut off date. If I don’t hear back from anyone then we will self-publish The Scent Enchantress on amazon.com. I’ll be making a dedicated post about The Scent Enchantress in the future.
March 23rd, 2011 § § permalink
I chose a busy urban/city inspired fabric for little Drew. This particular hoop is full of colour. I will be making a miniDrew tonight and perhaps the boom crane which the monkey and Drew are hanging on.
I’ve been keeping busy editing my novel and finishing up my list of gifts. After Drew’s hoop is done, I’ll be back to Cinderella in full force every other night. I’ll be sewing on nights when Robert watches sports. He’s currently caught up on the Leafs playoff race for that last lonely 8th spot. My husband is a a poor eternal suffering Leafs fan.
I’ve also been making a list of supplies I’d like. DMC floss is on top of the list. I’m also interested in getting more seedbeads but I’m really particular about what kind I get. I need to see it in person and see how the light affects it. This means I’ll be scouting for bead stores in the area. There used to be two but they are now both out of business. I swear running a small business in a small town like Simcoe (pop 30K) is touch in ago. Most barely survive their first year. If I can’t go local, I’ll have to figure out where we can drive to that’s not too far for the baby. She hates car rides.
On another note, this website is still under construction. I’m not quite happy with the overall look yet. It’ll be customized soon by the husband. After I’ev finished editing my novel, it’ll be his turn. The title of the novel is “The Scent Enchantress.” It is a quirky fantasy. I’ll post links and more info when the time draws near to launch it in the Kindle Store on the Amazon.com website.